NUMB

NUMB.

I live in this new world where I know someone dying almost everyday. I live in a world where my own mortality is thrown in my face.

Why her and not me? Tears don't come.

Shock.

Sadness.

My stomach is in knots.....Will I be next?

Why God???

LEGACY. What is her legacy? What is my legacy?

Life is too short.

To live life in the moment is pressing into my soul.

I also want to retreat. No more sadness.

NUMB. Distract. Ignore. Don't go there.